Sunday, August 23, 2009

Day 234 (Mississippi Mud)

We climb to heaven most often on the ruins of our cherished plans, finding our failures were successes. - Amos Bronson Alcott

Do you take things at face value, or become bold enough to face the truth?

Sometimes just taking things at face value is cool. I mean, you get what you see, right? Damn, shorty is fly. Face value. Man, that dude is so cool. Face value. That car is nice. Face value.

But looking deeper can make you find the truth, and really, who doesn't want the truth? Damn, shorty is fly, but she's stuck up at times, like 24/7/365. Truth. Man, dude is so cool, but he beats on his women like they had Everlast tattooed on their forehead. Truth. That car is nice, but the damn transmission is shot to hell like them boys on A Time To Kill. Truth.

As a complex person, sometimes I cannot decide between taking face value, and finding out the truth. Truth hurts. A lot. And the truth is necessary in order for people to get by on the best of their abilities. I try to get by on my own abilities...but something seems to be blocking my progress, like myself.

Face value of myself is a cool dude, who loves his son more than anything, loves Nia Long *wink*, loves his family, loves writing, loves music, loves living life, loves his friends, etc...

But when I look in the mirror, truth is, I can't seem to get it together. Every time something goes right, something goes wrong, twice. However, I haven't learned to give up, and that is my greatest strength. I draw inspiration from those I know that have had grim times and haven't given up. It's just...

I want that... feeling. You know, that feeling you get when you do everything right, or when everything goes your way.... I've had enough of things going the wrong way.... but without that, how would I know when things go the right way?

It's just a bit of Mississippi Mud getting slung around tonight, it's no biggie. I can handle what comes my way, I'm MORE than strong enough to. I just needed to vent. I will use my failures to build a ladder to my success.

Well, it's bed time, I'm up too late. Work tomorrow. Come close, stay forever. I promise you won't be disappointed.

Now playing: Little Brother - Dreams
via FoxyTunes


Trill Smith said...

I feel you on this one right here. I feel the same way some times. For the longest time my friends would tell me "man, if I was you, I'd be cryin half the time. Nothing ever goes right for you." All I could think is "cry? Why?...Tears won't solve problems"
At the end of the day, I AM grateful that I can stand on my own and I can tear down any obstacle in my way.

She Hate Me said...

Thanks, bro.

Yeah, crying doesn't do anything but dehydrate you... and lubricate your eyes.

I don't have dry eyes and I'm quite hydrated, thanks tears. LOL

MamaShay99 said...

I feel ya. Glad to see you arent giving up though :)


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